i'm so in LOVE with YOU .

Friday, January 22, 2010 ♥

Currently at my BF's crib , doin nthn .... Just sitting on his bed and look at hym who's playing PSP ... Itx always like that ....

He doesn't talked to me for like an hour now ... Just concentrating on his game ... He doesn't know that I'm damn upset with hym ... haix ...

He was totally diff since yesterday night ... Onlined but didn't talked to me much . Got damn pissed off ... Haixx .... When I'm sicked for the last few weeks , he was so loving and caring ... He was so different .... But now , I feel like i'm not existed .

How I wish that he can understand how am I feeling right now . I need hym to console me ... I need his hug .. I need his kiss ... He got a cold feeling towards me . Did i do something wrong ?

I miss talking to hym in a loving way like he used to ... I wan hym to understand me . But ....

P.S : Babyy , I just wanna you to noe that I'm damn lonely now ... I need someone to talk to ... If I've ever make a mistake again with youu , tell me so that I know what you're not happy with . I'm envy with other couples out there ... The man are so damn loving towards their gurl ... I wanna feel the same too .... But it's seems that you dun understand .... Youu see me laughing but youu dunnoe that I'm crying inside my heart . I need your warmth hug . Yourr sweet kiss ...

Friday, December 4, 2009 ♥

Pejam celik pejam celik and itx alreadi the end of the month ... Time reali do fly reallii fast ..

Hmm ... Itx been a long tyme i didnt update my blog ...

Wanna look back what's been happening this year ...

Jan '09 : Life was okie ... As per normal ...

Feb '09 : Valentine and my Baby's bdae ... Was happening .... Can't ever forget that .. My plan was a success !

March '09 : Baby goes for National Service ... That's when my time management become complicated ...

Apr '09 : I dunnoe and i can't remember ... (-_-)"

May '09 : Work life become tough ...

Jun '09 : Quit PH ... Start a new job .. Joined Starbucks ... Everything was fine ...

July '09 : Our 3rd Anniversary ... My love for hym become more strong then ever ... Granny was hospitalised ..

Aug '09 : National day ... Aper ekh kiter uat ?? Hmm ... And also Fasting Month ...

Sept '09 : Bibik Nur went home for good .. And 1 thing i can't forget was break my fast together with my baby and frens .. Was a enjoyable day ...! And also raya falls on 20th Sept .. Our 3yr and 2 mths together .. Celebrate our first day of Raya at hospital as my granny was still hospitalised ...

Oct '09 : Work at starbucks was a fun and relax place for me ... Love my partners alot !

Nov '09 : Mummy's bday and I also realised I spent alot of tyme with my dear one even we fought alot ..

Dec '09 : Work life became abit tough ... Problems all the way .. But enjoyed the Open House .. My bday .. Chalet .. And lookin forward to 2010 !

Hmm ... I hope in 2010 .. My life will become more easier .. Will find a full-time job and spent MORE time with hym .. Shahrul Nizam ...

Saturday, November 7, 2009 ♥

It's been awhile since I last enter my entry ... Hmm ... Busy lar deyy ...

Niwae ...

First of All ... HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY AN !!!! Da besar dier ... Haha .. Can't imagine our friendship is alreadi more than 6yrs ... Hahaha ....

Hmm ...

Alifah went over to my hse ... Haha ... Da besar da ... Nxt mth da 1 yr .. hehe ...

About myself .. I'm okie as usual .. Jux normal migraine datx all ... Been thinkin alot dix few daes ... I just dunnoe why dix few daes me and my Boyfiee bertekak alot ...

Only GOD knows why ...

Baby doesn't know why I hate and scared wen he contacts with other girls ... No matter how hard I tell hym dat I luv hym , no matter how he apologise and say sorry , He still do it again . I'm damn patience with hym . But is going over my limits ... I can't stand it animore ... I just wan hym to realise dat I really luv hym ... I'm damn afraid to lose hym ... So afraid .... I just hope he'll realise 1 day ... Really hope dat ... I wan hym to know I reali luv hym ...

Friday, October 30, 2009 ♥

It's been a long time since I update my blog ...

Just a quick update ...

This week was the tiring week cux ...

- Attachment at OC and Cintech IV.. OC for two days and Cintech IV was today ..

- Doctor appt at NSC was on Wednesday ..

- Tmr OPENING !!!!!

Anyway ..

Come to my personal daily life ... I think I got Insomnia .. Believe it or not , I can't sleep for almost 3 three days ...

I dunnoe why this few days me and my boyfiee always quarrel . Was it because of me ? Was it because that he's tired ? Many questions are playin inside my mind which I want to ask hym .. But I noe how he'll react .. I'm scared of hym most of the tyme ..

Am I not good enough for u ?
Why did you luv me at the first place ?
What do I have that u've grew fond with me ?
and lastly , do you reali luv me with sincere ?

This are the questions that keep playin in my head ... I'm daMn upset wen you keep scolding me .. What do I hope best is we stop this fight , STOP ALL YOUR miggle-ling and miang SHITS !! I really beg u .. I can't stop to have a worried heart . Even though I'm not thinking that u'll do anything stupid , but that feelin will keep coming to me .

Baby ..

I really want eu to noe that even though we are both busy working , I want euu to noe dat u'll alwaes be in ky heart .. If you realli luv me , plx stop ur nonsense and stop flickering with other gurls .. I can feel the difference wen u keep something away from me ... Pls baby ... I reall begging euu ..

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