my LOVE ... my LIFE ... my EVERYTHING ...

Having a bad week ...

2010-01-22T04:46:00.000-08:00

Currently at my BF's crib , doin nthn .... Just sitting on his bed and look at hym who's playing PSP ... Itx always like that ....

He doesn't talked to me for like an hour now ... Just concentrating on his game ... He doesn't know that I'm damn upset with hym ... haix ...

He was totally diff since yesterday night ... Onlined but didn't talked to me much . Got damn pissed off ... Haixx .... When I'm sicked for the last few weeks , he was so loving and caring ... He was so different .... But now , I feel like i'm not existed .

How I wish that he can understand how am I feeling right now . I need hym to console me ... I need his hug .. I need his kiss ... He got a cold feeling towards me . Did i do something wrong ?

I miss talking to hym in a loving way like he used to ... I wan hym to understand me . But ....

P.S : Babyy , I just wanna you to noe that I'm damn lonely now ... I need someone to talk to ... If I've ever make a mistake again with youu , tell me so that I know what you're not happy with . I'm envy with other couples out there ... The man are so damn loving towards their gurl ... I wanna feel the same too .... But it's seems that you dun understand .... Youu see me laughing but youu dunnoe that I'm crying inside my heart . I need your warmth hug . Yourr sweet kiss ...

Lookin back at 2009 ...

2009-12-04T20:14:00.000-08:00

Pejam celik pejam celik and itx alreadi the end of the month ... Time reali do fly reallii fast ..

Hmm ... Itx been a long tyme i didnt update my blog ...

Wanna look back what's been happening this year ...

Jan '09 : Life was okie ... As per normal ...

Feb '09 : Valentine and my Baby's bdae ... Was happening .... Can't ever forget that .. My plan was a success !

March '09 : Baby goes for National Service ... That's when my time management become complicated ...

Apr '09 : I dunnoe and i can't remember ... (-_-)"

May '09 : Work life become tough ...

Jun '09 : Quit PH ... Start a new job .. Joined Starbucks ... Everything was fine ...

July '09 : Our 3rd Anniversary ... My love for hym become more strong then ever ... Granny was hospitalised ..

Aug '09 : National day ... Aper ekh kiter uat ?? Hmm ... And also Fasting Month ...

Sept '09 : Bibik Nur went home for good .. And 1 thing i can't forget was break my fast together with my baby and frens .. Was a enjoyable day ...! And also raya falls on 20th Sept .. Our 3yr and 2 mths together .. Celebrate our first day of Raya at hospital as my granny was still hospitalised ...

Oct '09 : Work at starbucks was a fun and relax place for me ... Love my partners alot !

Nov '09 : Mummy's bday and I also realised I spent alot of tyme with my dear one even we fought alot ..

Dec '09 : Work life became abit tough ... Problems all the way .. But enjoyed the Open House .. My bday .. Chalet .. And lookin forward to 2010 !

Hmm ... I hope in 2010 .. My life will become more easier .. Will find a full-time job and spent MORE time with hym .. Shahrul Nizam ...

My Random Thoughts .... (-_-")

2009-11-07T05:35:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since I last enter my entry ... Hmm ... Busy lar deyy ...

Niwae ...

First of All ... HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY AN !!!! Da besar dier ... Haha .. Can't imagine our friendship is alreadi more than 6yrs ... Hahaha ....

Hmm ...

Alifah went over to my hse ... Haha ... Da besar da ... Nxt mth da 1 yr .. hehe ...

About myself .. I'm okie as usual .. Jux normal migraine datx all ... Been thinkin alot dix few daes ... I just dunnoe why dix few daes me and my Boyfiee bertekak alot ...

Only GOD knows why ...

Baby doesn't know why I hate and scared wen he contacts with other girls ... No matter how hard I tell hym dat I luv hym , no matter how he apologise and say sorry , He still do it again . I'm damn patience with hym . But is going over my limits ... I can't stand it animore ... I just wan hym to realise dat I really luv hym ... I'm damn afraid to lose hym ... So afraid .... I just hope he'll realise 1 day ... Really hope dat ... I wan hym to know I reali luv hym ...

Let's UPDATE !!!

2009-10-30T09:36:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since I update my blog ...

Just a quick update ...

This week was the tiring week cux ...

- Attachment at OC and Cintech IV.. OC for two days and Cintech IV was today ..

- Doctor appt at NSC was on Wednesday ..

- Tmr OPENING !!!!!

Anyway ..

Come to my personal daily life ... I think I got Insomnia .. Believe it or not , I can't sleep for almost 3 three days ...

I dunnoe why this few days me and my boyfiee always quarrel . Was it because of me ? Was it because that he's tired ? Many questions are playin inside my mind which I want to ask hym .. But I noe how he'll react .. I'm scared of hym most of the tyme ..

Am I not good enough for u ?
Why did you luv me at the first place ?
What do I have that u've grew fond with me ?
and lastly , do you reali luv me with sincere ?

This are the questions that keep playin in my head ... I'm daMn upset wen you keep scolding me .. What do I hope best is we stop this fight , STOP ALL YOUR miggle-ling and miang SHITS !! I really beg u .. I can't stop to have a worried heart . Even though I'm not thinking that u'll do anything stupid , but that feelin will keep coming to me .

Baby ..

I really want eu to noe that even though we are both busy working , I want euu to noe dat u'll alwaes be in ky heart .. If you realli luv me , plx stop ur nonsense and stop flickering with other gurls .. I can feel the difference wen u keep something away from me ... Pls baby ... I reall begging euu ..

It's been a looonnnngggg time ...

2009-10-16T03:28:00.000-07:00

Hey ... This is just my random thoughts ...

Been busy with work .... Tiring though ... Hmm ....

Miss my baby alot ... Will update soon aite !

Random Thoughts ...

2009-10-05T07:36:00.001-07:00

Hey ...

Been busy with my things ... Will update soon !

SORRY ..

Raya Outing with ex-BPians ...

2009-09-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

Didn't update yesterday as my eyes was too tired to on the laptop ... Let the pictures do the talking aite !

Wahidah and Afiqah ...

Hazmi ...

Me and Baby .. This is the first tyme he followed me ...

At Allysia's Crib .. Too bad Nassrah and Shafiq was not there ...

Hilmi , Me , Hasyimah and Wahidah at Wahidah's Crib ..

Before leaving ..

Me and Aishah

The ladies and Hilmi ...

My BESTIES !

My sister , bestie and CRIME PARTNER !

My loving boyfiee ...

Me and the CHARMING guys ... Of course my baby is much more better .

My BEST FREN .. 8 yrs of FRIENDSHIP !

Can you decide who is older ?

De guys ...

Yan and me ... His first tyme raya-ing with us .

Yus and me .. Also his first tyme .

The Ladies in ACTION !

At my Crib ...

Baby and me ...

Last hse for the day ... Yus's Crib ...

Raya Outing with LAZY BOYZ and ISNOR on 260909 ...!

2009-09-27T09:59:00.000-07:00

Hey ... Was too tired to update yesterday as Lazy Boyz had an Raya outin ... Hehehe ... Bit cockup ... But fun afterall ...

As usual , let the pictures do the talking ... :))

This is my new look . Woke up as early as 7.45am jus to get my hair rebond ... How ? Nice ?

Our design helmet and Is's helmet is in the middle ...

The couples who were that day are as follow ...

me and Baby ...

Pehn and Sofi ...

Nur and Zak ... Only 3 couples on that day ...

Baby and Mas ... First tyme following us ..

Here is Isnor .. Also first tyme following us ... He was the busiest guy .. Gets alots of phone calls ...

This guy in red here is Kif .. He's promotin that cili sos at his own hse ... Hahaha ...

Here comes the family ... On my left is my baby's brother .. Jek ..

Here are the handsome guys ...

( in clockwise manner ) : Kif , Pehn , Zak , Isnor , Baby , Mas and Jekky ...

The Ladies ..

( left to right ) : Sofi , me and Nur

Our own Family ...

At Sofi's Grandmum hse .. She do really reminds me of my Grandmum ...

At Sofi's blk ... Aren't we suitable for each other ? :)

Me and Nur ... Hehe ..

Zak and Kif was doin a Skit .. Haha

Abg and Adeq ..

At Baby's hse ...

At Baby's room ..

Us on de wae to Sis Hidayah hse .. As she is stayin at Pasir Ris , Kif decided to ride wit my baby and i go wit Pehn ..

Baby , Zimah ( Sis Hid's anak Sdare ) and me .. Do we look like family ?

Zimah and me ...

de guys ...

de ladies ...

de guys again .. baby is 2nd shortest .. huhu ...

and together ... hehe ..

The last pic of the day .. I had to bent down cuz wearing high heels ..

JUX RANDOM QUESTION

2009-09-25T11:30:00.000-07:00

Q : who do you prefer? boyfriend or guyfriends? why?

A: Boyfriend lerr ... Cuz i'm ATTACHED !

Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?

A: - Get a better job ,

     - spent my entire life with my baby ... <3

     - get married and hav kids with my baby ... <33

Q : What would your first reaction be , when you see someone you like , being happy with some other guy/girl ?

A: disappointed ? jealous, speechless maybe .

Q : What will you be in 8 years time?

A : heh, already married and have kids. ohh, i lovee kids ! lols

Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?

A: sometimes. as we wont know tat sumthing might happen.

Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?

A: i guess yes. if i really love tat person, why not ?

Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

A: i dun nid to wait ani longer cuz , he's already be mine ... heh .. <3

Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?

A: unhappy ? Not spending alot of time with my baby ...

Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?

A: yes ofcoz ! ohh boy, ure sooo cutee !

Q : Who are currently most important people to you?

A: my DEAREST LOVING BOYFIE , my collegues , my boyfie's family and also my mummy !

Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?

A: LOVE, care, trust, understanding. it must come from the bottom of u heart. i hate jerks !

Q : Are you happy with your life?

A: u think ? sometime im happy, sometime not (:

Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick? the lousiest one? OR the better one?

A: like duhh.. ofcoz i would pick the better one (:

Q : What type of friends do you like?

A: caring, understanding, wen we have prob, sort things out together. but, all my frens are like tat i believe. i lovee them okay no matter how bad they are. they are still my fren .

Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?

A: hmmm, yes ! manyyy oiii !

Thursday and Friday .....

2009-09-25T08:11:00.000-07:00

Lalalalala .... I'm updatin for yesterday and today ...

My Thursday routine ...

- Woke up at 12.30nn ...
- Took my bath , getting ready for werk ...
- At 2pm ... Went out to werk ...

Arrived work at about 2.45pm ... I was warmly welcomed bck by all my partners there ... Haha .. Mish them alot too ... M.O.D at nite was Evelyn .. My partner was Kenny ... Haha ... Was damn relaxed but onli frustrated wid some of the customers ... Had my 30mins break at about 7pm ... Evelyn treated us dinner .. We had Pastamania .. Hehe ... Werk ends exactly at 10.30pm ... Thankx to Nazeem for not ordering alot of stocks dat day ...! Baby fetch me frm werk ... Baby was looking very tired though ... Haix ... Kecian dier ... Reached home at about 12am ... Went online ... Msn-ed with Shema .. But then Hilmi called me .. Then conferenced with Shema , Yan , Aishah , and Afiqah ... Me and Shema was too lazy to talked so I hung up the phone first . Den Shema called me . We talked and den Wahidah called . We conferenced .. Talked and talked till we didnt realised the tyme ... IT WAS 6A.M IN THE MORNING ...!!! Hahaha ... We hung up ... Slept ...

That's when today story comes ....

Woke up at 11am .... Was still bit sleepy but was hoping that baby will get to go home as today was his off day ... He received a recall frm his Sir ... But thank god that I gets to mit hym today ... So we went to Bukit Merah as he wans to buy a sticker for his helmet ... Den went to Vivo City ... Bought muvee tickets first before having our late lunch ... Ate at Pastamania ... Den stroll around , bought for hym a new wallet ... Den went to smoke .. He was very tired dix few daes ... I do pity hym ... Muvee was about to start so we went up again .. We went to watch The Ugly Truth ... It was damn hilarious ... My baby was laughing so loudly ... Hahahahaha !!!! After muvee , went to his hse ... Now here I am at his crib updating my blog .. Baby is now at LALA LAnd ....

Bck to Daily Life ....

2009-09-23T08:22:00.000-07:00

Today's routine ,

- Awaken by my dad at 8.45am ...
- Slept bck and woke up at 12.30nn ...
- Took my bath and get ready to go to my granny hse ...
- Reached bout 2.15pm ...

As soon as I reached her hse , thought Alifah was awake ... Tdo pulak .... Den hse phone rang it was my grandfather ... Askin me bout Alifah ... But she was already awake wen the phone starts to rang ... Haha ... Muker stonned jek tgk org ... Baru bgn katerkn ... Played with her for about 2 hrs , den wen to Sun Plaza kejap .. Haha .. Strolled around all by myself ... Hehe ...

Sampai uma jek , ingatkn dier tdo ... maseh maen2 pulak si kecik ni ... Hahaha ... Mkn kejap ... Den maen dgn dier lagi ... Pnat siak ... Dark circles are growing 1mm every minute siak ... Hahaha ... Den bout 7.45pm , Yaie baru alek frm NUH ... He looked very tired .. Everyday to and fro frm Hospital ... Haix ... Cian Yaie ... He also lose weight .... I really pity hym ... Haix ...

Den bout 8.10pm ... Baby came to fetch me ... FINALLY met hym after 4 days .. Haha ... Really mish hym alot siak .... Hugged hym , kish hym .. Hehe ... Den we went to Lot 1 ... Treat hym dinner at Food Culture ... Hehe .. Really mish having date with hym ... But , the funny part is , I called mummy , I told her ...

Me : " Ma , Kakak gi Lot jap ."
Mum : " Buat per ?! "
Me : " Alaa ... Jumper Shah kejap ... Gi mkn dgn dier ... "
Mum : " Ader2 jek la kao nie !? Blikn Air TAHU !? ... "
Me : " Aik ! Da marah2 lps tuh kirim benda pulak ... Hahaha ..."

Pelik btol la my mum ... Haha ... After dinner , went down .. Go smoke , loiter around before he sent me bck ... Now , here I am ... Updating dix BOF BLOG ... Hehe ...

Tmr , I'M WORKING !!!!!!

First Day of RAYA ...

2009-09-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

Salam Lebaran Buat Semua Umat Islam tk kira dimana saja anda berada ... Ok ... Basically , let my picture do all the talking ... :)

Me with my Baju Kurung and dix yr theme's is Orange ...

Me with my siblings and mummy ... Mummy wearing the same design but in PINK ...

We visited granny first at Hospital ... I can't bear to see her crying cuz dix is her first tyme celebrating raya at Hopistal ... And beside her is my favourite youngest cousin , Alifah .. This is her first tyme celebrating Raya with us ... Look cute is she ... Hehe ..

That's me with her ... Isn't she cute ?

Me , Granny , Sis and Mummy ...

My Family with our Grandparents ...

All the ladies in ACTION !

Cute tk Alifah ? She's wearing my shades ... Hehe ...

This year Raya falls on the 20th September .. And 20th Sept is also my monthsary with my baby .. On that day , genap la our 3yrs and 2mths together ... He's my everything ... I do reali mish hym alot ..

Opening .. Haha ...

2009-09-21T14:00:00.000-07:00

Hey ... Basically , I'm still new to blog .. So .. Forgive my to my mistakes ...